"My mind reminds me that nothing can separate me from God's love, but my heart still seeks assurance."
The statement above rings true to me: the logical and illogical parts of the brain working against each other in the quest to find truth. On one hand it is easy to state: God is Love; but truly believing that is another thing completely.
Years ago I wrote a song, "The Story of my Life." It was to be the end of Act 1 in my musical about Little House on the Prairie*.
There's a part of me that wants security,
Conforms to society, obeying the man.
And there's a part of me that longs for freedom,
A place to grow, and maybe I can.
There's to parts to every story,
Faith and Glory, maybe more.
For my heart needs time for decisions,
To make provisions, not before
I allow these two parts in my heart to unite,
And become the Story of my Life.
A girls dreams are fed by reading fairy tales,
Believing in fantasies, a wish on a star.
But her dreams are crushed, when reality
clouds her veiw, dstroying her fame.
There's to parts to every story,
Faith and Glory, maybe more.
For my heart needs time for decisions,
To make provisions, not before
I allow these two parts in my heart to unite,
And become the Story of my Life.
And I know that my life isn't all up for me to decide,
But the chance for me to be free.
I must try to be one, who will conquer the raging sun,
And I pray, Oh Lord guild me, guide me
There's a part of me that wants security,
But society I'll leave to the man.
Because that part of me that wants freedom,
I'll let it shine, I'll let it grow.
There's to parts to every story,
Faith and Glory, maybe more.
For my heart needs time for decisions,
To make provisions, not before
I allow these two parts in my heart to unite,
And become the Story of my Life...
And become the Story of my Life...
And become the Story of my Life!
*For those that do not know, I was denied the rights by the holder, and even though I could still perform the music the true meaning was gone for me. It also didn't help that the guy I was "into" back then made fun of "Mary's Lament." Interestingly enough, there is a musical called, "Little House on the Prairie the Musical." It's coming to the Fox Theater with Melissa Gilbert (Laura) playing Ma. I'm seriously considering going to see WHO got the rights. Of course, in retrospect, who was I to think at 20 I would be seriously considered to write a musical based an iconic series of books. Ah, youth!
Today's Scriptures
Psalms 139:17-24
Your thoughts - how rare, how beautiful!
God, I'll never comprehend them!
I couldn't even begin to count them -
and more than I could count the sand of the sea.
Oh, let me rise in the morning and live always with you!
And please, God, do away with wickedness for good!
And you murderers - out of here! -
all the men and women who belittle you, God,
infatuated with cheap god-imitations.
See how I hate those who hate you, God,
see how I loathe all this godless arrogance;
I hate it with pure, unadulterated hatred.
Your enemies are my enemies!
Investigate my life, O God,
find out everything about me;
Cross-examine and test me,
get a clear picture of what I'm about;
See for yourself whether I've done anything wrong -
then guide me on the road to eternal life.
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